Sleeping Cats and Ponderings On My Life
Jan. 30th, 2005 01:51 amI've realised how much I've missed my darling cat. I'm housesitting for the parents who are in Denmark, and really, my main job is looking after the cat. He's been sleeping on the couch while I've been watching telly (Discovery. There were even baby wombats) and occasionally awoken to nibble food and wash himself. You'd think he didn't need me there, but he will actually follow me if I change room and then find another spot near me to snooze. He's a very social little thing. He does snore a bit, though. Still, he leaves an uncomplicated sort of life. I sometimes envy him. Having such a barin as we humans do is a blessing and a curse both, me thinks. It's harder for us to live in the moments and simple pleasures. And the wars we wage upon each other are can make anyone wonder what good our brain does us in the end.
But we all have to do the best with what we're given, ne? And the human brain is neither good nor bad, but has the capacity to be both in the same lifetime. And petty. I can feel my own brain battling the urge not to be petty every day, today included. I sometimes lose, I think. I worry about the paths I might walk, where they might lead and how dark the shades of grey will be. In about three weeks I will be twenty-five. (Maybe I'm halving a halfway-to-mid-life-crisis.) Where will I go from there? Will I one day awaken to (to quote a Swede) "all these days that passed, I did not realise them to be life"? Should I live my life to some greater purpose or just live it for myself?
Cats don't worry about these sorts of things. They are born and they died and what they live inbetween is simply life. And I'm left pondering if my life will be good or bad, if I will be gentle or petty and what I might do if the world was in my palm.
But then I think that all I will do will come to ashes. Nothing is forever, not even stars. And thus in the end will not not what I lived have been simply life, my life?
I probably snore a bit sometimes too.
Meme spotted around:
Ask me four questions. Any four, no matter how personal, private or random.
I will answer them honestly. I have to answer them all.
In turn, you post this message in your own journal and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.
But we all have to do the best with what we're given, ne? And the human brain is neither good nor bad, but has the capacity to be both in the same lifetime. And petty. I can feel my own brain battling the urge not to be petty every day, today included. I sometimes lose, I think. I worry about the paths I might walk, where they might lead and how dark the shades of grey will be. In about three weeks I will be twenty-five. (Maybe I'm halving a halfway-to-mid-life-crisis.) Where will I go from there? Will I one day awaken to (to quote a Swede) "all these days that passed, I did not realise them to be life"? Should I live my life to some greater purpose or just live it for myself?
Cats don't worry about these sorts of things. They are born and they died and what they live inbetween is simply life. And I'm left pondering if my life will be good or bad, if I will be gentle or petty and what I might do if the world was in my palm.
But then I think that all I will do will come to ashes. Nothing is forever, not even stars. And thus in the end will not not what I lived have been simply life, my life?
I probably snore a bit sometimes too.
Meme spotted around:
Ask me four questions. Any four, no matter how personal, private or random.
I will answer them honestly. I have to answer them all.
In turn, you post this message in your own journal and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.
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Date: 2005-01-29 06:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-29 06:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-29 06:32 pm (UTC)Do the best you can with your life. Follow your own moral compass, within reason, and simply do the best you can in life, whether it be good or bad.
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Date: 2005-01-29 06:44 pm (UTC)Food for thought!
Date: 2005-01-29 06:54 pm (UTC)If offered a chance to take over the job of leader of your country, would you do it?
How far would you go to get what you wanted?
Do the ends justify the means?
Re: Food for thought!
Date: 2005-01-29 06:58 pm (UTC)I'd think about it very careful and then - yes, I would take it.
To where I could still live with myself and no further.
No.
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Date: 2005-01-29 07:20 pm (UTC)Elephants or quiche? Why or why not?
Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
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Date: 2005-01-29 07:25 pm (UTC)That's all any of us can do in the end, after all.
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Date: 2005-01-29 07:25 pm (UTC)Quiche. Because Rimmer says so.
I weep because the world is sometimes a cruel place.
They're water from my eyes.
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Date: 2005-01-29 08:22 pm (UTC)I had a crisis when I turned 20 last October. I was howling that responsibility and maturity and gray hair were approaching. Remember? Heee!
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Date: 2005-01-29 08:37 pm (UTC)2. If journalism had nothing to do with your future or line of work, what would you want to do for a living?
3. If you could live any day of your life over for whatever reason (and assume you aren't following some philosophy or logic like "The past is the past and we should move on from it instead of trying to change it"), which day would it be and why?
4. Favorite line from a song?
(Retaliation can be done here if you want, but retaliation is not required.)
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Date: 2005-01-29 09:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-29 10:39 pm (UTC)2. Any other projects in the works?
3. What other plans do you have for your future?
4 What did you want to be when you grew up?
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Date: 2005-01-30 01:46 am (UTC)-Why do bullies exist?
-Why is Situation Ethics difficult?
-What is your lifetime goal?
-Where did the OFUM idea come from?
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Date: 2005-01-30 02:45 am (UTC)Hm, four questions (even though curiosity killed the cat, as they say):
Who is your current Tolkien-related lust object?
Have you ever written fangirlish badfic yourself?
If you did, where can we find it online? ;)
What was the most embarassing thing that ever happened to you?
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Date: 2005-01-30 04:16 am (UTC)There were lots of little baby wombats and baby possums, too. And a joey.
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Date: 2005-01-30 04:25 am (UTC)2. Work in the foreign service
3. I'd relive walking around Uluru with my mum.
4. "We can weigh all the tears in one hand
Against the laughter in the other."
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Date: 2005-01-30 04:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-30 04:29 am (UTC)2. Yes.
3. To do various rather dull work and get experience until I can get a job in the foreign service or charitable organisations.
4. A detective.
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Date: 2005-01-30 04:33 am (UTC)- Because if ethics get too fluid, they can be washed away alltogether.
- To die old and feeling like I would do my life all over again.
- Beta'ing a badfic. It sparked in me a desire that people should have a degree before unleashing fanfic upon the world.
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Date: 2005-01-30 04:33 am (UTC)1.) What would you say is people's most common misconception about you?
2.) Sum yourself up in a quote.
3.) If I were in Norway, where is the first place you would take me?
4.) Boxers or briefs?
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Date: 2005-01-30 04:35 am (UTC)Yes.
You can't, not the worst of it. It exists only password protected on my computer.
I was shown on national television wearing red longjohns and a pink Minnie Mouse sweater.
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Date: 2005-01-30 04:48 am (UTC)2. "She does not see the same world you and I see. In her world we are better than we are; we care more than we care; we act towards each other with compassion."
3. I'd take you out on a clear winterevening to Nordmarka and show you the silence of beauty of winter. And I'd teach you how to ski.
4. Briefs.
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Date: 2005-01-30 05:15 am (UTC)°_° I know that I have already asked my four questions, but -- how? And why?
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Date: 2005-01-30 05:24 am (UTC)But then I think that all I will do will come to ashes. Nothing is forever, not even stars. And thus in the end will not what I lived have been simply life, my life?
I probably snore a bit sometimes too.
And a hearty "Word" to that. Even the last bit. Whilst being able to analyse our actions and feelings can be a blessing, it can be so easy to get caught up in the details and possible consequences. Sometimes you have to remember things like what you've said above, I think.
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Date: 2005-01-30 05:55 am (UTC)Bast
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Date: 2005-01-30 05:57 am (UTC)And I stubbornly refuse to accept that there will be nothing left when I go one day. But it's good to stop from time to time, remembering that you are mortal. Sometimes this gives you the change of POV you urgently need.
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Date: 2005-01-30 10:03 am (UTC)2 If you were to get a cat today, what would you name it? If in Norwegian, please translate.
3. What's your favorite breed of dog?
4. Do you have a CSI-related lust-object? If so, who?
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Date: 2005-01-30 10:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-30 10:53 am (UTC)Yeah, sometimes remembering the simple things is most complicated of all. We get caught up in the big questions and forget the simple truths. They vanish in the clouds of worry. Bu while it can be good to worry, it's not good to worry all the time.
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Date: 2005-01-30 10:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-30 11:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-30 11:05 am (UTC)2. I already have a cat, but if I ever had another and it was black, I'd name it Saganatt. Saga is an epic tale and "natt" means night.
3. Norwegian elkhound
4. Grissom's brain in Warrick's body. Hello!
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Date: 2005-01-30 11:23 am (UTC)I used to have a Norwegian elkhound. When my parents moved to Moscow, Lily and I moved in with some family friends. I've since gone off to college, but Lily, now a rather elderly dog, is still enjoying retirement down in North Carolina, hoping it will snow.
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Date: 2005-01-30 12:33 pm (UTC)1) Your favorite place in the world?
2) What was your very first fandom?
3) If the world would end tomorrow how would spend your day?
4) Your all time favorite book?
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Date: 2005-01-30 01:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-30 04:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-30 05:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-30 05:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-30 05:50 pm (UTC)Our neighbours way back when had a Norwegian elkhound named Egil. I used to walk him quite a lot. He was adorable.
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Date: 2005-01-30 05:52 pm (UTC)2) Star Trek: Voyager
3) With those I loved. And shagging all those male friends I find attractive, but wouldn't sleep with because it would ruin friendships I value.
4) A Little Love Song
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Date: 2005-01-31 09:01 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-31 05:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-02-01 02:56 pm (UTC)Would you rather star-gaze or enjoy the rain?
Which virtue is the most important?
Did you lie when you were seventeen?
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Date: 2005-02-02 06:05 am (UTC)