And the days do pass...

[misscam]

Update for those of you who know what's going on.

Got my lawyer this week. In Norway, anyone who has been a victim of violent crimes (hereunder rape) have a right to a supportive lawyer, bill footed by the state. Mine seems very nice. She'll be keeping in touch with the police in case there's any progress as well as help me in case of trial and with seeking compensation. I apparently have a right to that as well, regardless of whether they catch him or not.

I'm sleeping badly and I have pains now and then that I guess are simply my body's way of reacting to the current mess in my head. So much to figure out and no idea how to. It'll come, I'm sure. My anger's on the rise, I can tell, from my getting annoyed at people who IM me with all kinds of inane things, not to mention idiot sale people on the street. If I blow up at anyone, I apologise in advance.

I haven't fallen to pieces, at least and I suppose that is the main thing. There's always time for everything else.

Comments

[briasoleil.livejournal.com]

I can't offer much more than my empathy and understanding.

If I had any advice to give, it would be to see a therapist as quickly as you can possibly handle it and as often as you can possibly handle it.

I'm keeping you in my thoughts. {{{{hugs to you}}}}

[briasoleil.livejournal.com]

*headdesk* I'm sorry. I'm projecting all my myriad issues onto you. And you don't need that. I'm sorry.

I am, however, a fan of therapy. It's done wonders for me over the years and it may be a source of comfort for you. And comfort isn't such a bad thing.

[dawning-star.livejournal.com]

I'm so terribly sorry, Cam. *hugs*

[misscam.livejournal.com]

I have several possibilities there. I think my doctor is setting me up with someone. I just have a slightly Norwegian aversion against talking about problems too much that I'll have to overcome.

[briasoleil.livejournal.com]

As open as I am about my life, I really, really don't like talking to therapists. It's like admitting a weakness. And being depressed, you just naturally avoid trying to get better. Until getting better is the only option to living.

But Cam, I have PTSD coupled with an anxiety disorder. I will forever be dependent on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication to live. And I can only think of how much better adjusted I'd be if only I'd gotten the help at the time of my assault.

I'm not trying to be a downer. But I wouldn't wish my mental health issues on anyone.

[bjam1402.livejournal.com]

I don't know anything more than what I've read in your LJ, but *hugs and cuddly animals* You seem very strong, even I can tell that from your online persona, so I hope everything works itself out.

[maureenlycaon.livejournal.com]

I fear I can't do anything more substantial than wish you luck. Again, you're in my thoughts.

I do think the therapist idea might be a good one.

[honorh.livejournal.com]

My goodness, Cam, I didn't know! I guess I've been caught up in my own stuff lately and was rather thick--looking back at your journal, I see what I missed. I wish I could help somehow, but I'll offer you my emotional support and hope the best for you.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

But our situations are slightly different. I cannot bury what happened to me since my family knows and will be there to make sure I do get help.

That's not to say I won't have problems - I'll probably have heaps of shit to have to wade through. But it won't be buried to come and suddenly overwhelm me years later.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

I'll... get better at least and carry it better.

[chem-nerd.livejournal.com]

*tea and chocolate* Hang in there.

[briasoleil.livejournal.com]

You're right that our experiences and situations are different. And I am, in no ways, the one with all the answers. And I certainly don't mean to demean you. And if I did, I'm sorry.

[armeniel.livejournal.com]

*hugs* There's not much I can do or say except that bad things shouldn't happen to good people. In fact, they shouldn't happen at all.

[magika83.livejournal.com]

Hvis noen kommer seg styrket gjennom noe sånt, så er det deg. Lykke til høres dumt ut, men jeg tror du vil tolke det riktig. Stor klem.

[beautyid.livejournal.com]

You're in my thoughts. You seem like a very strong and wise person. I hope everything works out for you.

[fondued-jicama.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I care about you a good deal, as I suspect people on LJ kind of build a camaraderie with one another, and...I'll pray for you. I'm not sure if that's appreciated, but I hope it doesn't bother you.

[aervir.livejournal.com]

Oh my God, I'm so terribly sorry for you. And I'm also sorry for typing something which sounds so hollow and trite and which doesn't help you anyway, but I do mean it, and you'll be in my thoughts.

It's good that you obviously have excellent professional help and such a supportive family to care about you and give you strength.

[syncopated_time.livejournal.com]

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You listened to me when I went through it. I can only offer you the same in return. Please, feel free to get in touch any time.

This isn't really a good forum for me to say anything else, so I'll just leave it at that.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

It's okay, you mean well. I've just had so many tell me what to do of late I want to decide a few things for myself.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I think I fiddle a bit with backdating that particular entry, so it's not that strange you missed it.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

Doesn't bother me, but I am an atheist, so I don't really do prayers myself. But we all have our ways of comfort.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

Word to that.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

I'll try my best.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

Yeah, probably. But one step at a time.