Bugger. Bugger, bugger, bugger.

[misscam]

*screams quietly*

Why the hell am I doing this to myself? Get over it, Cam. Get the bloody hell over it already.

But nooooo, I have to go and get myself more upset and make other people feel bad too. Like that'll help me much.

Bite me, Inner Drama Self. Then kindly go bugger off to the dark corner of my mind you usually inhabit. I don't want to listen to you. Bugger off.

Comments

[nimbrethil.livejournal.com]

There's nothing wrong with feeling anger toward someone who wronged you and refuses to acknowledge it with a personal apology, Miss Cam. You have every right to feel slighted, angry, betrayed, whatever. Stop punishing yourself for being human.

Remember: you have a right to just feel however you feel.

[gehayi.livejournal.com]

You are not the one do did anything wrong.

You don't need to get over it. The bitch Talia is the one who needs to get over herself.

You have a right to be angry and unhappy, and don't let anyone, especially Talia, tell you any different.

And for the record, forgiveness is highly overrated. So often forgiveness is a case of "well, you were very naughty, but I understand, and it's all right." What she did is NOT all right, and you don't have to say that it is. Nor do you have to say that you understand.

In your position, I would much prefer justice.

[armeniel.livejournal.com]

Everyone else was upset already, you didn't make anything worse than it was ^_^ And damn, if you have an active Inner Drama Self, mine has been in overdrive since I turned 14.

It's going to take time to get over it... It's not going to just disappear. But I don't know, I thought kind of writing down your feelings and stuff was supposed to help. Maybe it's better not to just bottle everything up. I don't know... I'm not a wise old Gandalf person. (At least, I sincerely hope not, as a white beard would not go with my school uniform.)

*hugs*

~armeniel xxxx

[irian.livejournal.com]

You're not being dramatic at all. Being betrayed by someone you though was a friend is a big thing, and the memory won't go away just like that. I should know, since I've been there. Even now there are still times when I think about what my friend did to me all those years ago.

[starfishofelves.livejournal.com]

*for lack of anything better to do, offers comfort* You've done naught wrong, and if it makes you feel any better, you can rant here as much as you'd like, for that is the use of LiveJournal.

[celebestel.livejournal.com]

*considers hugging, but decides this would be too presumptuous. Instead offers chocolate*

Don't worry about the Inner Drama Self. It's a screwy situation, and inherently dramatic. (You should see all the angst-crap I wrote when I found out)

And it's perfectly all right to have not gotten over it. (Argh, that sentence is painfully stupid) I don't think any of us really have completely gotten over it, and you have a special reason to be upset.

*offers more chocolate*

[psychicsaphie.livejournal.com]

Don't worry about the Inner Drama Self. It's a screwy situation, and inherently dramatic.

Dang straight. This thing has unleashed a LOT of our Inner Drama Selves. And some of our Outer ones.

And it's perfectly all right to have not gotten over it. (Argh, that sentence is painfully stupid) I don't think any of us really have completely gotten over it, and you have a special reason to be upset.

Double dang straight.

She's right, it is alright (Now that was a painfully stupid sentence, Kaitlyn; yours was fine). And remember, eventually you'll be able to move past it and find some sort of closure in the whole thing, whatever that entails, so take comfort in that thought if you can. It could take a long time, it could take a short time, but eventually you'll be able to move on in some way. Eventually we all will.

{gives a similar offering of chcolate}

[neongreenleaf.livejournal.com]

^points to icon^

Does it put a smirk on your face?

[misscam.livejournal.com]

So people keep telling me, but my Inner Self just ain't listening.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

I'd probably prefer revenge, but that's my dark and mean side talking. I have no idea what would be justice in this case, anyway.

It's not that I don't understand, anyway. I think almost anyone can udnerstand the desire for attention. I can sometimes understand why someone might commit murder. However, that does not mean I condone it.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

I've rather been used to the 'shut up and bear it' approach, actually. I just channel it out other ways. I don't write about my feelings directly very often, but I may work it into another story, or use it as inspiration for theatre, or just take a long walk and think it through.

Whatever works, eh?

[misscam.livejournal.com]

I don't really think we were friends personally - just sort of wandered in the same circles and had the same friends. So she didn't lie to my face. She just decided to exploit something bad happening to me, and in such a way that I thought it was maybe my fault (we thought her 'plagiarist' may have been a friend of a chick who plagiarised me because of the timing and some other factors). If it had just been the Eliana thing Thalia had done, maybe I would have forgiven her. But tha`t? I don't know.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

And here I thought it was to hold slash orgies :P

[misscam.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I don't know if I have that a special reason to be upset, but it has rather hit me bad. Can't really say I've ever had something similar happen to me, so maybe that's part of why I'm so upset. Who knows?

*eats chocolate* Mmm, Belgium.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

No, but it made me smile and write a bit on the chapter. It takes a bit to get me smirking.

[armeniel.livejournal.com]

Yup, whatever works. You know the best way to deal with your emotions, seeing as you're you. I'm not making sense... *shrugs* But I never make sense, so that's ok :)

People get really great pieces of art, like theatre, paintings, stories etc. when they're motivated by anger...

~armeniel xxxx

[starfishofelves.livejournal.com]

Well, you know, it does a lot. Very versatile bit of webspace, it is. :)

[neongreenleaf.livejournal.com]

close enough.